Tomorrow morning at 9am I will be sitting in a court room for the first time - petrified.
My Dad's make or break court date is tomorrow. It is really a sentencing hearing, and we are appealing for probation. What my Dad did was wrong, but he never acted on it. It was just all talk that got him in trouble. He has a squeaky clean record, so there is a chance we may leave there with him having probation. Which is what we are praying so hard for.
I have not cried about the situation since he got arrested last November. A few weeks ago I found my dad sobbing on the floor and my mom with him - but I just did not shed one tear. I stood there, cold as stone. Not upset or mad or anything like that. Just emotionless. I think it may be the way my mind and heart wants to handle it. I have a feeling once I get on that stand to testify for my dad, and the situation starts to sink in, I may lose it.
I am praying so hard that my dad gets probation and does not have to do time. If he has to do time everything will be turned upside down and we will really just be fighting to keep afloat.
So tonight - I will lay down in my bed - but probably not sleep.
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